Wednesday, January 28, 2009 2:48 PM

Am i lost in my own world??

♥Sitting in the NP library, waiting till 3 o'clock, staring around at people like a weirdo, its freaking boring, plus i hate it when i have to spend time alone waiting till class start at 3. I don't know why. this past few days, i tend to sit alone somewhere in school. Maybe i came to school too early, or i don't have any friends. They are no where to be found.. maybe i'm lost in my own world.. can't even see them even if they're right infront of me..

I keep feeling left out these past few days, maybe i'm stress of work, stress with school.. my room in a mess, my time schedule is totally jumbled up, i need a holiday!!.. can't wait for the holidays after exam!! i don't want to sit for the exam, can i just have the holiday?? please, please, president SR Nathan.. can lahh.. last time we neighbour what!! we play sembunyik2 together!!.. ( i tell him already! but he say last time his neighbour he play together, is lembut2, that one my other neighbour, he don't believe la seyh)..

I can't wait for the holidays to come.. i really need to rest my brain.. lots of studies to do, decisions to make, plans to create.. i need her.. she gives me the will to do everything that i'm not sure of achieving..

Labels: she says "i want the best 4 u" but u r my best.. u make me the best..nothing is best without you..

Friday, January 16, 2009 9:26 PM

Nobody see what i see

♥I used to go to school every morning during my secondary school life, so does everyone, in the morning while its still dark (PaGi-paGi buta), while my eyes are still heavy, while the schoolbag dragging me down to the floor..

and then i see.....

the man tapping his stick infront of him, the man who makes me shed a tear everytime when i see him walking, carrying a shoulder bag on his left while he held his stick on his right, he doesn't need any help nor does he needs anyone to feel bad about him, once i walk up to him and say that i will bring him to the bus stop, and he just said "never mind", i try to pull his arm, but he just don't want me to help him, and so i feel bad, maybe he don't want me to miss my bus, or he don't want me to waste my time on him, and then i realise, how hard it is to live like him, to not see the sun, the moon, the clouds, the sky, the beauty of the world, to not being a burden for everyone, to not beg for sympathy from people...

and then i see....

his eyes looking straight, and i know its all darkness for him, i see him everyday, everymorning, going to work, he inspire me.. his willingness, his courage, to continue on living no matter how hard it may be to accept his fate..

and sooo..

his stick keep on tapping through the dark, silent, morning until god knows when, the morning will be silent... ( i pray he will be stronger than ever and never lose faith on himself)..

Monday, January 12, 2009 2:55 AM

KeSanggupanKu

♥Apakah maknanya pengorbanan dalam percintaan?

Sanggup melihatnya bahgia walau apa cara
Sanggup bersabar dengan karenahnya walau menyakitkan hati
Sanggup menunggu hingga nyenyak tidurnya
Sanggup mengesat setiap air mata yang mengalir di pipinya
Sanggup berkorban nyawa supaya jantungnya masih berdetup


Soalan yang ku tanyakan pada diri sendiri:
Adakah ku sanggup untuk membuat sedemikian...

Walau nadiku maseh tidak henti, kan ku tidak akan henti menyayangi
kerana bagi ku, itu la kesanggupan ku terhadap mu.

Thursday, January 8, 2009 6:39 PM

Luahan Hati Untuk Seorang Puteri

♥


"From all the hate you say to me, deep down i know you love me"



I LoVe u 2 La SeyH.. :):):)

Sunday, January 4, 2009 5:41 PM

A ParT-time job n a fuLL-time SchooL

♥What its like to balance a part time job and a full time school?

From my point of view, i think that all it takes is just the proper management of schedule that is really important, you have to prioritize more on your school schedule than your work schedule, you have to plan the amount of time you want to work and combine it with your school schedule. In the end all that is sacrificed is your energy, still.. you get paid..

Now i'm doing a part time job as a security protection officer, since three months ago, not guard?? the differences is i'm qualified to fight fire, medical aid, emergency response procedure..ceyhh.. haha..act ah.. 1 year and 6 mths as a fire fighting instructor and 6 mths as a specialist emergency responder is not worth nothing!..:):):)

Behind this cool calm face.. and low profile personality..trust me.. you never know what i'm made of!..cheyyhhh...

Snap a few pics from my work place: Fountain of wealth in 4 colourzz..






Those who wants to work part time and at the same time going to school, by all means, you 're big enough to make your own decision!, in malay words "Suke hati kau la nak, da besar panjang pon"

Thursday, January 1, 2009 8:00 AM

HaPPy NeW YeaR!!

♥
So here comes another year to look forward to.. school, work, money, her..
Hope 2009 will be better than 2008, last year was very dull.. the only best thing about last year was meeting that girl.. seriously she's the one that will make me remember about 2008..

Yesterday we celebrated dad's birthday with all my uncles,aunties,cousins, location at a karaoke lounge at Johor Baru, reached there at 11 pm, all cramped in that room with.. i forgot how many person there were.. with barbequed black pepper and honey roasted chicken all being served at the table.. like woah!!.. yummy.., i sang two songs.. one from Ibnor Riza and another from Aerosmith.. i'm so talented (perasan).. haha..but i am good.. should hear me sing sometime, if only you pay me :p:p:p..
Guess what time we return home?? 5.30AM.. and somebody is jealous..haha! :):)..





School starts on the 5th.. i don't like this semester.. the modules are difficult to cope..seriously.. and the teachers.. are too fussy..well.. welcome back to school then!!